MY BESTFRIEND SLIPPED INSIDE ME (AN ALPHA’S SECRET) - Season 1 Episode 84

Avery’s pov

My breath catches in my throat and for a second I thought I’d choke on air. I stared at him, eyes wide, mouth hung I am sure awkwardly. I must look like a fish right now. “Xade-

I breathed and the light turned green, causing him to bring his attention back to the road. I frowned as I saw how harder he gripped the steering wheel and how his jaw was set tight.

“Forget you heard that.” He grunted, words biting me more than I could handle. My stomach drops and my heart sinks and I blinked.

And then blinked.

And blinked again. Until that hurt feeling turned into frustrated irritation. “You can’t just joke about stuff like that asshole!” I snapped.

He’s silent, but I know he had heard me, my voice was not only too sharp to not have reached his ears but by the way his demeanor changed, he heard.

When he did not respond I gritted my teeth. “You’re so confusing! One minute you are hot the next you are cold. Make up your mind Xade!”

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Suddenly the car swerved and comes to a screeching halt beside the side of the road. He turns to me, breathing heavily and eyes full of emotions that cast too fast for me to focus on one.

“You do this to me! You make it impossible to stay away from and you don’t listen when I tell you to.” He ground out.” This is so fucking painful Avery, wanting you so badly but cannot have you. You keep showing up makes it more the more difficult to keep to my word.”

My breathing haste in the car and the rain turns to a drizzle as we stared at each other. My eyes soften as I see the internal struggle in his eyes, those he tries so hard to hide away from me.

I swallowed hard. “Why can’t you have me?”

My heart slams against my ribcage, waiting for his response but it doesn’t come until a minute after a tense silence. “Because I’m not good enough for someone like you.”

I frowned, brows furrowing as I lean toward him. He stiffens. “I’ve never felt this way about any one before, I know you feel it too. This,” I stared deep in his eyes, the blue so warm and good making me melt. “Feeling. You feel it too.”

I searched his eyes, and he hides them away, turning away from me and looking ahead. He let out what sounds like a sad frustrated sigh and starts the car once more, pulling back onto the road.

“It’s better if we don’t act on it Avery.” He replied finally and those aren’t the words I want to hear.

I glared. “Then maybe you should stop acting possessive over me because a guy asked if we were dating. Which we are not!”

I can hear the sound of the steering wheel groaning as his grip turn deathly. “So he could try to flirt with you?”

I scoffed, my glare hardening on his face. “So what? At least he’s not a coward to act on his feelings.”

His jaw set as he clenched and unclenched but he remained quiet and the rest of the ride to the dorm is filled only with thick ugly tension.

My arms are folded across my chest and I’m biting into my lower lip so brutally I am sure I have permanently left my bite mark sinked into the fleshy bottom.

It’s crazy how things have moved so quickly between Xade and me, yet somehow still slow. Every single time I believe I am getting closer to cracking the code, he pulls away and shields himself.

He’s still a stranger, mysterious as he was, he still felt familiar.

He pulled up to the curb outside the dorm and doesn’t turn off the engine. “Thanks for the ride.” I unbuckled, biting my tongue because I wanted to say more to him. Wanted him to say more to me.

But he doesn’t. And I can’t resist.

As I opened the door, I stopped and turn to him, my eyes lowered to his shirt. “Are you really going on a date with Melissa tonight?”

My eyes lift to gauge his reaction and see the look of surprise in his eyes. His brows pinched. “What?”

I bit my lower lip hard. “Melissa said you two have a date tonight,” I searched his gaze.

As I see more confusion swim in his eyes I added quickly. “It’s not like I care about that, we’re not a couple and you can date whoever you want-

“I don’t have a date with Melissa Avery,” Xade cuts in firmly, his eyes boring into mine. I held my breath as tingles race up and down my spine. “She’s not the one I want V, she never had been.”