JUST A LITTLE SIN - Episode 19

“I’m not interested if It’s going to be another one of your stunts? I said to him.

“No, i’m serious, we have to go… but if you don’t want to come along then no problem, I will go alone. I explained to you that what took over me during that Virgil yesterday night was unexplainable…”

He paused and continued

“…i knew it was time immediately the worship and prayer began, I have seen the caliber of people in there. Rich men and women and I already knew that we were at the right place. I was calling and texting you to remind you that it was time but you weren’t responding, I can’t allow you use your dull and indecisiveness to distract me, I said to myself. maybe by the time I get rewarded at the end then your eyes will be cleared and you will come to understand why I choose this particular kind of hustle. I started acting little by little and I was gradually intensifying the holy ghost drama when the three ministers came to my seat and began praying for me. It was at that moment I loosed control over myself, I was thrown to the ground and began convulsing on the cold floor. I loosed totally control of my entire being and it was during that period I urinated on myself..”

He paused again, after few seconds silent he continued.

“…I can’t explain it Tomasi, it has never ever happened before. I was not expecting the results I got at the virgil yesterday…”

“But you got rewarded anyway. Despite it didn’t end up well with you they still gave you a big gift..” I said standing up from where I sat.

“There is no reward, the only thing inside that bag is a new Bible, a Bible study book, a new believers guide to Christianity then they added a t-shirt and black trouser that is not exactly my size. I wish they didn’t because it makes me feel bad knowing that they knew that I urinated on myself. I’m not happy with how I ended up, although they asked me to come tomorrow for church service, maybe they will give me some money because I don’t have a dime here. Will you come along?

“I’m not sure. i want to focus in searching for a proper job. Please, don’t include me in another of your hustle. Konji, you need to get a good job too because this kind of your hustle is not legit..”

” you know I didn’t do anything bad in my acting. I didn’t carry gun or hurt anybody just to get paid. It was just using my talent of acting to feed. Well, I understand now that is dangerous and I will indeed change line of hustle but just to be cleared, I don’t think is a big sin, seriously is not…”

I chuckled and said “then why did God decided to punish you last night at the virgil. If it was just a little sin like you said the other day, your punishment shouldn’t be up-to what you got. I hope you learn your lesson and please don’t introduce me to anything related to this…”

I started walking towards the door

“Will you come to church tomorrow? Come let’s go together please..”

“No, I’m not sure I want to go anywhere tomorrow. I’m going back home, my brother said his fiance is coming over today. Tomorrow I want to get all the rest I need so that by Monday I will be off to the street in search of a job…”

I stopped at the door and said

“… please Konji, don’t go to another church for this kind of your holy acting hustle because you may not go home alive. God who decided to save you yesterday, may not save you next time and I may not be there to carry your dead body home. From now onwards, please stick what is right and that gives you peace of mind..”

He scuffed at me and said..”God cannot kill me because I didn’t do anything bad. You really don’t know much about God, some people must have brain washed you into thinking God is a killer or he punishes innocent people or people who just wants to hustle legit to be able to survive this sad world. I will educate you on everything about life, Christianity and God. Things does not work the way you think of It, I’m just a little sinner.

God is focusing on big sinners like, politicians, arm robbers, kidnappers, assassins, ritualist or those who use magic to deceived others. I’m not going to try this kind of hustle again because i have come to understand that is far too dangerous but I do want you to understand that is not really a big sin and God doesn’t punish people like that. I will educate you on God anytime you’re ready…”

I turned and walked away from his one stinking bedroom, it really smells too bad that I had to hold my breath most of the time.

Konji included those that uses magic to get what they want are in God’s blacklist, that means I’m included. He meant people like me. It was through black magic I used to have Oni.

I feel bad that I was reminded again

“…Hey Tomasi..”

I crossed over the house dirty gutter and stood.

“Konji..? I replied impatiently.

“The usher.. the beautiful lady. Who’s an usher you appeared to be taken with, don’t you want to see her again? Follow me let’s go tomorrow and you will get to see her and talk with her all you want.”

“I never said I wanted to see her again and beside, I’m not following you to church because of a woman. I have better things to do..”

.”you’re very strange Tomasi, I don’t think I understand you..”

I ignored him and went home.

The usher lady is the last person on my mind, she reminds me so much about Oni.

I hate to be reminded

Just like Konji said, I’m currently in God’s blacklist, I don’t want to do anything to add to whatever bad I did in the past.

I want to be extra careful and also be alive for the sake of Mama and my daughter, Oni’s only child.

Immediately I stepped into the house, Chumi, my brother’s fiance was already seated and didn’t appear happy.

“Where have you been, I came here around 9am and your brother said you went out since 7am..”

“I went to see a friend..” I replied calmly and sat down.

She stared at me strangely.

“…Do you need anything Chumi? My brother is home, why does my absence bother you..?

“Because I needed to cook something this weekend for my hubby to be. I wanted you to go to the market and buy some foodstuffs but you were gone to God knows where…”

Yoara came out of the bathroom and said to her

“You could have send me, tell me what you need and I will go and buy it. I’m sure Tomasi has other things to do..”

Yoara said as he wipe off his wet face with his towel.

I know Chumi doesn’t like the fact that I’m living with Yoara, she wants to occupy and dominate everywhere and doesn’t need anyone to stand in the way of her reign. And I try not to be on her way, I still wonder why she still doesn’t want to let me be.

She is a chorister in Yoara’s church and Yoara said she sings beautifully but from what I have seen and gathered from her attitude, she was also beautifully rude and does not pretend over not liking me.

Chumi sometimes visits with a girl of seven years and said is her sisters daughter, she will ask me to babysit her seven years niece while she goes out with Yoara.

She usually come with different attitude for me

Today wasn’t any different.

Chumi turned to Yoara angrily

“This is the problem I have with you Honey, you always defend him. Tomasi is a grown man yet he doesn’t have a Job, he doesn’t have a house, he doesn’t have manners or respect for me or you. neither does he have Christ. He refused to follow you to church, he will rather stay home and sleep all day…”

Yoara pleaded with her to calm down and come into the room so that they can discuss

“No, I’m not going anywhere. I’m tired of repeatedly telling you in private how much of a burden Tomasi is to you, to us. We’re planning to get married and live as husband and wife yet some part of our savings goes into feeding a grown man like Tomasi. He has to hear this because I’m tired of pretending.

Even the Bible said there’s no food for a lazy man. Just imagine as early as 7am he was already out, I came here around 9am and he’s not around, only for him to show up now. This is five minutes past ten and he left this house around 7am. He must have gotten a gossip partner because since he has no job and not making attempt in getting one then he will be going to different newspaper gossip joint to while away time so that by the time he comes back food will be ready for him to eat..”

I heaved a heavy sigh.

If not that I don’t want to offend my brother, I could have given her a piece of advice.

And i don’t batter words with women, is a waste of time.

All I did was to sit down and listen to her talk none stop.

I know Konji’s house stink badly, maybe I should go back to his house and chill untill Chumi is gone. because of all this Chumi behavior the house feels uncomfortable.

I may decide to follow Konji to church tomorrow and by Monday I will intensify my job hunt.

Where she makes mistake is the part she said I’m lazy.

I really don’t blame her but some day if this continues I may not be able to keep quiet.

I will let her know what’s in my mind but until then let me keep pretending and tolerating all kinds of things from her and just for the sake of Yoara.