ALPHA KADEN'S MATE - EPISODE 19

” I’ll love to have the French fries. ” I finally said.

” You love the French fries too? ” I nodded, ” That’s one of my favorite. ”

” Really? Well, that makes us a little common. ”

He typed something to his phone, not up to three minutes our dishes were served.

I was staring at the food before me, I don’t know where to start from in eating it.

I was so hungry but the moment Mrs Green asked me to meet him, the appetite left all of a sudden.

I picked the spoon beside the plate, picking a full spoon of the French fries.

” Have you gotten the new sim card yet? ” He asked.

” Yeah, I did. Thank you. ”

” It’s nothing. You can make phone calls as much as you want, the Wi-Fi password is 2147. Just in case you forget, it’s written at the back of the sim card. You can check it after this. ”

” Thanks again. ”

” You should stop thanking me, this is your new home, you are free to do whatever you want. ”

I smiled, excited on how he said the words.” I know you must be wondering why I came here, ” this wasn’t the right time to say this but, honestly I want to speak my mind.

I really don’t want to be acting like, I just decided the fact that I wanted this special dinning with him or whatsoever it may be.

I felt like I just needed to be frank with him, at least for now.

” It’s been five days since you brought me here and, we’ve never gotten the chance to have this special time for each other. I get it, I’m still not used to the wolf and mate stuffs but… at least I wanna get used to you too.

I know how much you want to see me happy but, it’s just so difficult for me to. Being mated to some one who every one thinks is a monster, some one every one believes to be my down fall.

You know, I don’t wanna believe that but, I don’t want to any more. ” I sniffed, wiping off my tears. I chuckled softly, ” Sorry, I shouldn’t be saying this. ”

” No, you are free to. ” He dropped his fork back on the table. ” Humans do think we are monsters, ” he smiled. ” may be that is what we are. I won’t force you to believe I am right or see what they have said to be wrong.

I respect what ever decision you take, as far as it makes you happy. And you have every right to be scared of me and my kind. I guarantee you one thing, no matter what happens, I will always be there for you.

He sighed. ” I had to take you to the other quarter because I felt that I needed to give you the space you want. I knew that spending most of your time with the humans there was the oy way to make you feel better. Guess it really did. ”

I nodded my head.

” What’s your favorite color? ” I was so surprised when he asked me that, I was wondering if I was imagining him asking me that or if for real he actually did ask me.

” Red. Purple. ” I said, feeling a bit relief at our new conversation.

” Don’t you think purple looks too childish for you? ”

” Purple? ” I asked. ” Purple doesn’t. It’s actually my favorite between the two. ”

He chuckled. ” I was expecting you to say something like blue or green. ”

” I hate green, a lot. And blue, I can manage it but that doesn’t mean I love it. ”

” Okay. What about your favorite pet? ”

” I can’t remember the last time I ever had a pet. ” I said, recalling if I ever had one. ” Well, I love cats. ”

” Cats? ” He repeated.

” Yes, I love Cats. Are you scared of them? ”

He didn’t say anything. ” You are scared of Cats? ” I asked again.

” No, just don’t fancy them a lot. ” He answered.

” So, what’s your favorite pet? ” I asked back.

” Any can serve. But I’ll prefer dogs. ”

” Dogs aren’t that much friendly to me, and they are scary too. ”

He held himself from laughing. ” What if you had one as a pet? ” He asked.

” No way. I’m gonna have it dead.”

” They aren’t that wicked as you think. ”

” They aren’t to people like you, but they are to people like me. ” Our eyes met for the nth time, this time I didn’t look away. I was staring back into his eyes, I was beginning to see how beautiful and gorgeous they looked.

They weren’t scary any more, instead they were welcoming.

And I felt my heart skip a beat, and a soft sparky feeling erupt in my belly. I swallowed hard, but still made an eye contact with him.

He didn’t look away too, he was looking right direct into my own eyes. Though I was feeling shy, but I found this moment welcoming.

I’m so complicated, I know, that’s because I find it hard to understand my self.

I don’t have any feelings for him but, a part of me tells me I do.

“ Excuse me, Ana, who is fooling who? ” said a voice in my head.

Why do I feel safe in here, why do I feel like I’ve got all I needed? Why am I so desperate for him, and why do I care so much about the distance we share?

Why am I bothered about my feelings, why do I feel like I am missing something? My whole life is complete, and every thing I ever want is just here for me.

But why…? Why am I still feeling like some thing is missing? What could it be?

Maybe Mrs Green is right, I’m still a novice to my feelings. Guess that is why I still haven’t understood what it means till now. She thinks I am going to make a great Luna, while I think I ain’t.

Let’s just be frank to ourselves, I’m a f*cking annoying bitch, right? And I am beginning to hate my self for that.

Am I the only one who thinks I am going insane with the whole thoughts in my head? Am I the only one having this feelings towards him? Does he feels the same way for me?

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Alpha Kaden ✓

I could feel her worries, her fears, her pains. I could feel them all in me like it was my own pains. I understand why she hates me so much, every human would do the same.

And it’s okay why she had to believe whatever her mother told her about my kind. We are animals, we are monsters.

But in those eyes, those crystal eyes I can see so many doubts. Reasons to disbelief every lies they have fed her with.

She wants to accept her fate, she desperately wants to but those words keeps pulling her back.

In her eyes, I can see her readiness to love and to be loved. All she wants in her life is happiness, and that is one thing I am ready to give to her no matter what it takes from me.

All I want to see is for her to be happy. I want to watch her smile. I want to look at those welcoming smiles, to believe that I haven’t fail my promise to make her happy.

I want her to love me. I want her to see how much I care about her. How much I needed her to be with me. To know my reasons for wanting her beside me.

I have waited for years… Eight good years to call her my own. To look into her eyes without any one telling me when or how to.

I want her to look into my eyes and tell me how much she loves me too. It’s so difficult to fall in love, but when you do, you just can’t resist the one person who makes your heart ache.

Can she ever love me the way I do? Will she ever love me for what I am? Can she?